September 3, 2008 – 6:50 pm
First negative test today. I think I jumped the gun and tested too soon, because if I’m *not* pregnant, than my body is an evil hosebeast. I definitely have the following symptoms:
- cramps
- the intense desire to go to bed by 8:30pm every night
- random waking up between 3 and 4 am, sometimes to pee, sometimes not, and then not being able to get back to sleep for an hour
- the boobs. OH MY GOD THE BOOBS. The soreness isn’t bad, but my "headlights" have been on for over a week so if I’m not pregnant, well, that’s just weird.
Back to waiting. Thank you for all your well-wishes!
P.S. I sent a card to my friend. Not sure what to do beyond that.
August 26, 2008 – 10:54 am
Currently, life is killing time until I can take a pregnancy test. How many symptoms do you think I can talk myself in and out of in the next 10 days?
August 23, 2008 – 9:43 pm
So, about my friend.
This is someone who’s been my friend for about 20 years. It’s the one person I’ve kept in touch with since high school, though I don’t get to see her more than once every few years. We were in each other’s weddings. She’s the best (and for much of my life, only) girlfriend I’ve had.
And last week she was arrested and accused of embezzling more than $80,000 from a church in my hometown over the course of 4 years.
To give you a little scale of perspective, my parent’s 2000 square foot home in that same town sold for less than $70,000 a few years ago.
I am floored.
I have no idea how to react to this sort of situation, I don’t think I’ve ever known someone who’s been arrested for something this serious, and it’s complicated by the fact that this is someone who is a long-distance friend. What do you do? What do you say? On one hand, if she is guilty (and I don’t know that’s she’s really denying it), she has done something I have no respect for. But it’s not a crime against me, so does that mean our friendship has been damaged? But how could I look her in the eye? If she is found guilty, her life will be irreversibly changed. She will probably lose her house. She has two kids! How would she work? She certainly could never work as a bookkeeper again.
I just don’t know.
If I don’t reach out to her, I might as well consider her dead, because I don’t think she’ll reach out to me.
This has been haunting me since I found out.
I think I’m just going to send her a "thinking of you" card, and not really say anything else.
Because I don’t know what to say.
